NYC Restaurant Week is here.... and I want to go out for lunches with friends so badly. I tell you my new favorite fo.od po.rn passtime is hitting up the 2008 Restaurant week website and reading all of the menus. Mesa Grill actually makes such a thing as Sour Cream Ice Cream. Sour cream ice cream.... mummmmmm
My masterful coach would not approve of my having 3 course lunches four days a work week. Currently, my calories low, oh so low*.
I actually feel hunger between meals. This is a new and powerful feeling, very very primal. At once it makes me scared and humbled. I know when those feelings come on I have to cope. As FDR once said "When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on." Usually, I'm approaching a feed - as I like to call my meals now.
I do wonder sometimes, what if this feeling never went away? What if you felt this, or even worse, knew your child felt this way - and could do nothing about it? There is an absolute gnawing feeling in my stomach at times, it goes so far beyond the once-in-a-while stomach rumblings. I actually looked at AB one night and pointed to that spot right up under the point your ribs meet and made him confirm that is where your stomach is! Seriously, being hungry hurts - it's an absolute physical pain.
Hunger makes you tired. Hunger makes you irritable and cranky and makes your brain a bit fuzzy. I'm afraid diet induced hunger also makes one a bit self righteous. Like having to remind yourself you're not better than others because you're hardcore.
Hunger.
That's the thought I find myself going back to when my mind wanders to things like restaurant week - and why it's unfair that I can't go. I have chicken and egg whites and vegetables waiting for me. Gourmet fair, no, but hunger will be a memory when the meal is over.
I am lucky and humbled at my own fortune and inspired to do something (though not quite sure WHAT) for those who are not as fortunate.
* The masterful trainer is an absolute pro, so no need to worry that I am starving, having a new and improved ED replase or otherwise doing anything stupid. I promise. 8-)
